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I'm not scared! [He's terrified, but not of split personalities per se.] I know what disassociation looks like. I've seen it in action, and that's not what Iron Man is.

[He's biting out the words.]

I'm in control. I know what I'm doing. That was- It was just a loss. It was temporary.

[He's repeating what Natasha told him and hoping that it really was just a temporary loss.]

It is your control that is temporary. Your fear and denial will not alter that, sooner or later you will be subsumed again.

I can't help with this even if I wanted to, I'm not a psychiatrist. Find a doctor.

I won't let that happen.

[As disturbed as he is by the response, Tony is still quiet and restrained. He doesn't raise his voice throughout his insistence.]

I know who I am. You wanted to know what happened when I died and that was it. It isn't normal for me. I just- It was a side effect of coming back.

[People don't come back from the dead, not really. All of this is smoke and mirrors, he just has no idea how it's done yet.]

Of course it's not normal for you, that's what makes it a condition that requires treatment.

You know what I mean! [Wow, what a complete dick.] I died. That was just a temporary loss. It's not what I'm usually like.

[Well, it is. He still acts like Iron Man sometimes, but Tony feels like he has to affirm that he knows who he is.]

If it was, you were making it worse. Why would you do that?

I was interested to see if the other personality could be contacted.

[He's often conducted experiments with people's mental wellbeing, just ask John.]