[He sighs irritably at his end, contemplating just hanging up, but a message written on his own hand stops him.
It means the reply is a long time in coming as he reads it, freaks out, forgets Mycroft is even waiting for a response, and then catches sight of the messages again.]
I don't recall, is that what you wanted to hear?
[He's angry to mask his fear.]
But as long as I'm not with you, I consider it the correct course to be taking.
[The pause is worrisome, and Mycroft fears that Sherlock had simply forgotten that he was replying to him, and was now wandering off somewhere that was now infinitely more dangerous with his memory problems.
Sherlock's remark cuts deep. He's used to them, he takes Sherlock's barbs without much fuss, most of the time. He deserves more of them than not, and knows it, but after what had just happened--watching him die--seeing things that should not be possible--Mycroft was not going to give up.]
You could easily die again. Don't be--
[He bites back his own scathing remark.]
--how do you hardly expect to find shelter on time like this? What if you encounter an anomaly again? What if you encounter something else!?
[It's so strange to hear Mycroft sounding so undone. He's usually perfectly in control of himself and his surroundings at all times, calm and measured in whatever he does. The few times he does recall Mycroft being less himself have always been times of danger for him, the first time he truly went overboard with the drugs comes to mind.
It's unpleasant.
It reminds him that there is affection between them, however stringently denied, and that he's once again hurt someone that he does care about. It's an uncomfortable and unwelcome feeling.]
Pull yourself together, Mycroft, this is becoming embarrassing.
[Seriously.]
I can see buildings ahead; you see, I'm perfectly competent at finding shelter for myself.
[Mycroft ignores Sherlock's plea, he knows how he must sound to Sherlock, but there were pressing matters at hand than worrying about his own state of mind. Which admittedly, wasn't all that great, considering. After the last few days, he wouldn't be surprised if someone woke him up and informed him that he had gone quite mad and was actually locked up in Sherrinford alongside Eurus.]
Until you forget what you were doing inside them and wander out again, only to get locked out.
[His memory isn't what defines him (except it sort of it), his mind still works (except it doesn't). He can do this. He doesn't need big brother to bail him out or act like some kind of mother hen.]
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It means the reply is a long time in coming as he reads it, freaks out, forgets Mycroft is even waiting for a response, and then catches sight of the messages again.]
I don't recall, is that what you wanted to hear?
[He's angry to mask his fear.]
But as long as I'm not with you, I consider it the correct course to be taking.
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Sherlock's remark cuts deep. He's used to them, he takes Sherlock's barbs without much fuss, most of the time. He deserves more of them than not, and knows it, but after what had just happened--watching him die--seeing things that should not be possible--Mycroft was not going to give up.]
You could easily die again. Don't be--
[He bites back his own scathing remark.]
--how do you hardly expect to find shelter on time like this? What if you encounter an anomaly again? What if you encounter something else!?
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It's unpleasant.
It reminds him that there is affection between them, however stringently denied, and that he's once again hurt someone that he does care about. It's an uncomfortable and unwelcome feeling.]
Pull yourself together, Mycroft, this is becoming embarrassing.
[Seriously.]
I can see buildings ahead; you see, I'm perfectly competent at finding shelter for myself.
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Until you forget what you were doing inside them and wander out again, only to get locked out.
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[His memory isn't what defines him (except it sort of it), his mind still works (except it doesn't). He can do this. He doesn't need big brother to bail him out or act like some kind of mother hen.]
Piss off.
[And he's gone.]